Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Back In The Saddle
Today was my first day back to work at the museum. Ah! I can't believe it has already been 6 weeks! I am returning slowly beginning with only a few hours one day a week. Once I am fully back into the swing of things I will still only be working part-time as it is very important to Kellen and I that one of us is always with Ezra during the week. Childcare is extremely cost prohibitive and we are fortunate enough financially that I will be able to stay home with him the majority of the time.
I love, love, love my job and it was so rewarding to be back in that environment. Getting out of the house and doing something I really enjoy and making a little bit of extra money is really good for me right now and wearing clothes that weren't pajamas (no matter how cute they are) was a welcome change of pace. I am learning that it is very easy to become isolated in new motherhood and just this little bit of time away is definitely going to help prevent too much removal from the outside world.
I definitely missed my little man, but I was back so quickly (less than 3 hours) I think he barely noticed my absence. I was also very happy that I was swamped with work, making the time go by super duper quickly. It was hectic, but definitely a blessing to my emotions. By the time my heart began to really ache for him I was in the car driving the less than 5 miles back to our home.
I never really saw myself as the "stay at home" type, but now that he is here that is exactly where I want to be. This is the time to really cultivate the beginnings of my relationship with my child and I am incredibly lucky to have the time and monetary stability to do that. With that being said I am still an individual with my own passions and curiosities. I still need time away from the home to pursue the other things that color my life with fulfillment. Like most things, it's not all or nothing and I look forward to finding the balance between work and home.
"Be moderate in order to taste the joys of life in abundance."